This summer I got a lot of on the job experience. unfortunately my plans have changed again. My goal was to be doing concept art and illustration full time at this point but I couldn't land the jobs I really wanted.
I'm currently working at my old job as a school bus driver again, wasn't planning on it but its the smart thing to do. Straight up its been depressing. I really can only get 3 days of solid studying in a week now. So lets talk about the new plan. I want to get out of AZ, I need a change of scenery, I need to get to CA where the industry is and I can make some new friends and contacts. To do this it will be wise to get a new fuel efficient car, my gas guzzling jeep would use up too much money. I'm also going back on a study binge again where everything I do is for myself. I'm going to focus on my portfolio I'm going to be aiming for a pro level of work and aiming at very specific and prestigious companies. I don't want to work for small or new companies, I'll never feel fulfilled there, that was never what i wanted when I started doing this.
You can probably feel the struggle in my words. I've had a few moments like this in the past couple years and I've always held back on the blog during those times, but I want to remember this well when I finally succeed so when young artists tell me about this kind of struggle I can tell them I remember how it felt and to just keep pushing. I might be pissed and disappointed with myself but I will never give up.