APR.10.2015 - Perspective Change

A lot has happened in the last several months, I've been so busy and preoccupied with work and life I neglected to update the blog :( but we're back! So the above piece is the first image I did at One Pixel Brush almost a year ago for the game "Breach and Clear: Deadline". The image was also displayed on IGN which pretty much blew my mind. I've come a long way since then in artistic confidence, efficiency, and execution; its been such a fortunate experience. I've done dozens of images at OPB at this point and really enjoy it. Hopefully I'll have some more OPB work to show after E3.

Lately I've been focusing on learning how to create 3d assets for in game use. The weapon above is the project I started to learn how to do it. You can see the original concept and the high poly 3d model that I've started for it. The goal is to prep it at current gen level and AAA quality then bring it into the Unreal Engine as a functioning in game weapon. Berry exciting.

I was in the weirdest funk for the past few months and normally I don't share stuff like this but on the chance that someone can relate to this and maybe get back on track I think its worth talking about. I've had a lot of changes in my life the past year, as a result the meaning of my life has been scattered around. I wanted to get down to the bottom of it.

I took to my journal. The entry started with me complaining as my journal has also been a kind of literary punching bag since as far back as I can remember, but ultimately it's where I go to organize my thoughts. I have too many to manage sometimes. In the middle of my onslaught of complaints I took a deep breath, my entry suddenly shifted focus and I wrote:

"...but I'm grateful to exist. I like existing, I'm certain it's better than not existing. I'm grateful for the amazing people that pop in and out of my life. I'm grateful for the variety the world has to offer..."

In that moment I realized how meaningful these things I was writing were to me. I realized I had been so caught up in hamster wheel type problems of life I neglected to slow down and acknowledge how kickass this moment of existence really is; the wealth of experience, opportunity, and possibility all around. These are the things that should be getting me out of bed in the morning, these are the things that make this very second so important. This is what makes life worth struggling and working through. I recognized something constant to hold on to, a solid foundation, through gratitude I find a lot of meaning in my life.